An Announcement From the Bully Pulpit...

Okay folks. Time to talk about things here..... To say the least, this was a very interesting weekend. I have a few different groups of people that I associate with in different ways. Some are social, some are civic, and some are personal. None of these groups really cross paths with each other, so when things like my birthday come up, I may get spread thin. Apparently, I didn't satisfy anyone this weekend. I tried my best, but mostly what I got was snotty remarks from people and everyone slamming me for being selfish....

Let me give you all a small glimpse of what I go through on a daily basis: Sunday night, i drive 3 hrs to Hilton Head, where I get up at 545am to go work 11 hrs a day. I sleep on a couch all week and do not go out all week until Friday at 500PM, when I hop into my car, drive 3 hrs back and come home. Saturday is spent doing yardwork at both of my houses and laundry and paying my bills. Finally on Sunday, the routine starts all over again. I haven't been out to eat in months, I buy cold cuts and make lunch to save money. I have cut every conceivable bill I have to save money, so i can accomplish two things: to pay back the people I owe money to, and to try and help out someone I care about get by as well. I've been there, so I understand how it is..... Essentially, I am trying to keep EVERYONE happy. I have a plan, I am executing it, and by winter, I will have paid back everyone the money I borrowed. Guess it's not good enough.....

Right now, what I need is for everyone to get off my damn back. I don't need people judging me when they should know better when you are ready to make personal changes. I have seen people make the same mistakes, and I let them run the course out to decide what they want to do. It takes time. What I need is some understanding and patience, not ranting and messages that piss me off and insult people I care about, whether they really deserve that caring or not.

I have two groups of people that are testing my patience: those I hear too much from, and those I don't hear from enough. Even though they don't really know each other, they seem to be hellbent on fighting each other. My advice is to respect my judgement, and to realize that there are thing about both of you that I like - otherwise, I wouldn't be around you... I rarely do this, but here is what I have to say.....

I am what I am, and I'm not embarrassed by what i do. I like to go to clubs sometimes, and if that makes those around you think i'm some pervert, then I'll gladly return all of the porn that gets dumped at my house from all my buddies when they get married. I never realized that I was such a bad influence on our youth either. Maybe you guys don't realize it, but the conversations about where I spend my free time aren't started by me, and they sure as hell aren't mentioned in front of kids. If you don't want to hear about it, don't bring up the fucking subject, because I don't.

I was going to talk about things from the other end of things, but I don't see any way of explaining things and how they are without hurting people's feelings. Just know that I'm a pretty good judge of character, I know this person extremely well, and I know her heart is in the right place. The friendship is a two-way street. We do things for each other, and I know that someday, the trust will be there to get things be more normal. Like I said, there are things that I will NEVER tell you that would explain alot. I only wish that all of you would get together and realize that everything is cool, then maybe you'd all respect each other a bit more.

For now, I'd just appreciate a little silence. I'm tired, my back is killing me, and the last thing I want to hear is a bunch of whining... REINO HAS SPOKEN....

Have a Nice Day !

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